Learning to Trust God to Supply My Needs
Philippians 4:19 “But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”
Throughout my life, I have encountered many situations and circumstances where I “sure nuff” needed God to step in immediately and take care of me. I have been saved for over 32 years and I can truly say that within the last couple of years, I have honestly learned what it means to totally trust God and solely and wholly lean on him and him alone.
One situation that remains fresh in my mind was when I was temporarily unemployed from June 2006 to September 2006. I had just bought my house the previous August of 2005 and I was all set as far as I thought. Life was great; I was now a homeowner, I had accomplished that “American Dream”; I had a great job, and I was well on my way. I felt that I had finally made it and things were going be smooth sailing from there on out.
Well, it wasn’t long before things changed and suddenly I had to learn to really trust God to supply ALL of my needs and to really take him at his word. In June of 2006, my department was relocating to NH and I was not willing to commute an hour and a half each way every day, so I decided to leave my job and took my severance package. Being that I had been with my company for 6 ½ years, I was going to receive 13 weeks of severance, and in my mind, I would absolutely have a new job by the time the severance ran out.
During this time, I began to really get in my word and God gave me two specific scriptures to focus on; Philippians 4:19, listed above and Matthew 6:25-33. I meditated on these scriptures day and night and every time I received a rejection letter from an interview that I went on, I went right back to these scriptures.
Note: During this time, I went on 11 different interviews that were in the courts, (I have a Criminal Justice (CJ) degree) and I received not one of them!
What I didn’t realize was that God was getting ready to set me up for a real good blessing.
After receiving the last rejection letter from the courts, I decided to stop looking and just sit back and “let God do it” because I had no idea where else to look or where else to apply to. At this point, I was nearing the end of my severance monies and I had no clue what else to do.
God led me to another scripture during this time: Proverbs: 10:22 “The blessing of the Lord, it maketh rich, and he addeth no sorrow with it.”
Keep in mind, I had just brought my house about a year prior to this happening and I knew that God would not bless me to leave me in the loop or cause me to lose my house that he gave me. When he led me to the scripture above regarding no sorrow being added to his blessings, I knew he was confirming what I already knew.
After I gave up looking for jobs to apply to, God lead someone to me in September of 2006 telling me that they were about to CREATE an Assistant Director position at Dana Farber Cancer Institute and that I would be perfect for the job. I was like huh??? I had no experience related to this area, I was a CJ major, what did I know about Cancer??? The person said she wanted to hire me for my managerial abilities and that she felt that my personality and work ethic would be a good fit for her department.
I praise God that in October 2006, I was hired at Dana Farber Cancer Institute as an Assistant Director within their Contribution department. I stayed at this job for 11 months and left because my purpose there had been fulfilled and it was not a good fit for me any longer. Again, I was now in the situation where I needed a job because I had a house to pay for and the bills were coming.
I report victory because when I left Dana Farber in September of 2007, I had no job once again. In November of 2007, I interviewed for a position at Bank of America and I did not receive that position. (**Praise God for that because later on everyone in that department was laid off**) However, the recruiter looked at my resume and asked me if I would be interested in an investigative job (my background and field of study), which she thought I would be perfect for. She sent me the job description and I said sure, I am interested. I interviewed for that position and I stayed in that job for 6 1/2 years. As of this date, 06/19/2015, I am still employed with Bank of America but in a different role. I received a different job and a promotion in December 2013. As I said earlier, God was getting ready to set me up for a real good blessing and he sure did!
One thing I learned from this trial is that sometimes God will take us out of our comfort zones, to take us where he wants us to be so that we can be better equipped to receive the ultimate blessing(s) that he has for us.
To provide a little clarity, the salary that I earned while at Dana Farber, allowed me to ask Bank of America for the exact amount of money that I wanted to make and they gave it to me. Also, he taught me how to deal with conflict while at Dana Farber.
In short, when God is leading you in a different direction outside of your comfort zone, don’t complain about the process, just follow his lead because he has your best interest at heart and he knows what is best for you; AND he knows what he is doing!
Keep trusting him to supply ALL your needs. Stay encourage and blessed.
Phyllis A. Brown